Saturday, December 22, 2001

Spectacular. I'm listening to this song called "Sunlight in the Rain" by Kelli Ali. It's the prettiest song... I can't wait for her album to come out. She has a single called "Kids" coming out in the UK sometime (late?) January... and I think I'll pick up a copy. I haven't heard the actual version of the song, but I have heard remixes and it seems like it's a killer pop tune.

Her voice is so darling. <3

Too many attractive men on the tele. End transmission.

Thursday, December 20, 2001

Woo, I'm in a good mood. Nothing too exciting happened today at school... but I did develop a new crush. I got to talk to them for the first time (I didn't like them before, btw)... and it was pretty cool. They're younger though, and that mega sucks. But, it's kinda cool... you know... I like crushes. They make me happy. I don't know if I have a chance (they're TOTALLY into some other junior) but... it's ok. I will just enjoy this feeling now :)

Wednesday, December 19, 2001

I wrote this song today. I finished the lyrics, I finished the music, I finished everything. I'm quite proud of it... it really sums me up about how I feel at the moment. Just in case you were wondering, this isn't the song I was talking about before.

so it seems we've reahed and end
-- but i don't believe it's over
we're both too cool to care
yet i know that deep down under
all of the resentment, all of the fear
something's still good, something's still here

now the flame has flickered
do you really want it to die?
i can't leave it that empty
you can tell by the way i try
i'm sure i seem stupid + maybe i am
but i will still continue doing all that i can

[chorus] i know what you're afraid of
but there's nothing to fear

at the least i feel embarrassed
foolish + dumb
and i'm turning quite angry
emotionally abused
i'm sick of all the lies
why must you involve a fucking nation?
and you know that by tomorrow
i'll think that the weight's on my end

i feel vulnerable
(i'm drowning)
you don't care - i'm ok
(i'm drowning)

so it seems we've reached an end
and it's ringing that we're over
we're both too cool to care
yet compared to me you're nearly freezing
and you say you've tried your best
yeah, that's what i have to believe in
now i'm spinning as i fall
with a reject and a farewell

Sigh. If you heard the music... it'd fit quite well. I think it's pretty. It's not slow, but it's more of a quiet song. My friend Michael says it's "universal!". Haha, he's a super guy. He also says that my "I'm drowning" part is questionable because of it's "woe is me" attitude. I guess that's true... but it's staying for now :)

<3 to all
Wow. Today was very, very, very uneventful. But that's ok...

I wrote a song about an hour ago (yes, I write songs. They're not too terrible, either... but, they're very "me"). I think it's pretty neat. It has this cool little bass riff... I'm so excited. The lyrics are very sarcastic, and I kinda just do this speakover thing with the same melody as the bass riff... sorta. "When I get a boyfriend, we'll go to a lake, a lake downtown and we'll get real high..." damn, fun stuff! It's written semi in the eyes of a "typical" high school student... you know the drill : daft, self-centred, aloof (all of which I am, so no I don't think I'm so cool). I think the lyrics are what the person who is the epitome of cool would be. Possibly. The chorus has a really cool line, to me...

when I scream for help
they'll all come running
but they're running away

Damn, I like that. But I'm not patting my own back... I'm just... bored. Entertain me. Do a jig!

Girls like to wake up at 3:00am to think about things. Hurrah!

Tuesday, December 18, 2001

Today was weird. I went from being terribley down... to riding a high high.... to now being completely nothing. I feel like I am unwhole, like I'm missing something. It's just... like... a riddle left unsolved, or something. I don't know, I feel as if I'm not explaining it well. I guess I really can't.

... reach out and touch faith! [depeche mode] ...

Sunday, December 16, 2001

Hey, this is messed up :-P

Take the Corporate Mascot Test at Willaston's Lounge!

Here are all of the things I got (damn, they're blunt):

Oh, the fun...
Well, I am in a fantabulous mood.

Winter Ball was quite possibly the most carefree fun I've had in a while. There was nothing clouding my mind, no worries, no nothing. I was really happy. I hung around with my date and two of my friends that went together. I can't explain the goodness... but... it was really good. Damn. It ended way too soon.

I'll end this transmission. Maybe I'll write more later.